Vid: A Better Son/Daughter, Carrie Fisher and Gary

[eruthros]

Title: A Better Son/Daughter
Fandom: Carrie Fisher and Gary
Song: A Better Son/Daughter by Rilo Kiley
Length: 4:38
Contains: no standard content notes apply. Brief mentions of fat shaming, addiction, and institutionalization. There is no footage of Carrie Fisher's hospitalization or funeral in this vid, but there is a shot of her on a gurney (from Wishful Drinking).
Summary: You'll be honest, you'll be brave

Download: A Better Son/Daughter mp4, 107 MB, 1280x720
Subtitles: A Better Son/Daughter subtitles

Streaming version:

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Fanwork credits in order of appearance:
Glitter for Carrie Fisher - Super Quick Makeup Tutorial by AMANDAJEANNN
g'nite spacemom by glosolitofa
Carrie Fisher by abimerrell
Rest in Peace Carrie Fisher by moishpain
For Carrie by J J Lendl (xfilesposterproject)
Commision for tullycat by thebarbershopquartet
Thank you Carrie Fisher by imnot12 (gif)
Stay afraid but do it anyway tattoo by finndameronns
stay afraid but do it anyway tattoo by thetwilightbrigade
Drowned in moonlight tattoo by poseidonne
Drowned in moonlight tattoo by gvlvxies
Take your broken heart tattoo by righteocean
Sur-thrive tattoo by chaseyesterdays
Her spirit will live on forever <3 by melodymaysecret
Thanks for everything, Carrie, see you in outer space! by cookiesdf
Fanart by blu-thunder-bomb based on a post by rachsolo
editorial cartoon by laloalcaraz
She'd rather have us laughing by rigamo12

Lyrics:
Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs
I know I can't breathe
And hope someone will save me this time
And your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
That god never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
Crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you loved things just because
Like the sick and the dying

And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
And you'll be smarter
And more grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
You'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy

Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
And your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it
You'll go out fighting all of them

Comments

You Win, We Win

[jesse_the_k]

This is SO GREAT! And you made both the Carrie-centric and Gary-centric versions, which was such a smart decision, because there was more story than one vid could handle.

Re: You Win, We Win

[eruthros]

Thank you! And yeah, there was so much story (and so much more puppy than could fit in this vid).

[devohoneybee]

sobbing now. "Carrie sent me" KILLED me.

[cinco]

Not a dry eye in the house as I watched this with my wife. Absolutely perfect tribute.

[futuransky]

OMG. I didn't catch any festivids while they were anon, in fact this is the first festivid I have watched this year, and what a one to start on. Devastating. I was already crying and then I thought my heart was going to fall out of my chest with the Resistance/March footage. <3<3<3<3

[kore]

This is one of the best vids I've ever seen. I cry every time and have sent the link to so many friends. Thank you, so much.

[rydra_wong]

Oh, thank you so much. This is beautiful.

[rydra_wong]

I just made a non-DW friend cry by showing her this and I am not sorry.

[purple_smurf]

I've been hanging out for reveals just for a download of this (I can't remember the last time I downloaded a vid). I was already crying over Carrie when I came over here (unintentionally tragic SW fic) and man, I just UGLY cried through it this time. It's perfect, and the end just kills me.

[staranise]

Ohhh man. This made me cry.

[musesfool]

GROSS SOBBING.

Thanks so much for making this. It's beautiful and heartfelt and necessary.

[anna_luna]

This was amazing, it made me laugh and cry. Thank you for sharing it!

[the_oscar_cat]

Fantastic! and yeah, obviously it made me cry.

[lola]

This vid is so amazing, though (because?) I start crying within seconds when I rewatch it.
I would love to be able to download the 720/1280 version but sadly the file seems to have expired. If you have a chance, would you mind reuploading it? Thanks so much!!

[eruthros]

Thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed it.

I updated the link to the vid - let me know if you have any problems with it!

[ryca]

I'm so glad that I found my way back to dreamwidth to see this vid. It's absolutely perfect and I'm crying at work and now I want to go call my mom and tell her watch it too. Thanks for all of the work that you did making it - it was worth it.

Now to gear up to watch the Gary vid.

[eruthros]

I'm so glad you enjoyed it! And I'm glad you found your way back to dreamwidth <3

[ryca]

Saw this today and thought of you (spoilers for Rogue One).

http://on.io9.com/w8XNxdU

[clevermanka]

That was beautiful and glorious. Thank you.

[sophygurl]

What a beautiful tribute to a complicated and wonderful person (and her dog).

[goodbyebird]

I wasn't in a space to watch this during festivids, but had the opportunity to cry a few tears over it at VidUKon (from the sounds of it, I wasn't the only one). Truly a beautiful, heartfelt vid.

[jb_slasher]

I cry hard every time I watch this vid. It is beautiful and triumphant and truly in honor of Carrie Fisher. Okay, #TimeToBecomeGenerals, dammit. <3

[sylvaine]

I thought I could get through without crying, but then you got to the fanworks and I started bawling my eyes out. What a good vid <3

beautiful

[oldtoadwoman]

Belatedly stumbled across this vid. This was lovely. (I almost made it through without crying.) Thank you for sharing!

[petra]

I am sure I watched this when you first posted it, but I rewatched it today at a friend's suggestion and cried, as is traditional--but it was an empowered, strengthened crying, not just the despair of loss. Thank you for this vid, and for reminding us to keep fighting.

[endeni]

Hi, I've been rewatching your vid and it made me cry, it makes me cry every single time I watch it OMG, thank you so much for sharing, so powerful... <3

Someone linked this on Fancake, so if it gets more likes, you know why.

[flamingsword]

This was great, and made me cry, and I thank you for it.